it’s not an extensive list.
it includes my brother getting married, people dying.
that kind of thing generally gets me flustered.
another thing that does it is much more mundane. time passing abruptly.
I know, logically, that time passes at the same constant speed.
I know also that it is supposed to pass. time is what keeps things from happening all at once.
but to me it seems that time goes very slowly when I am waiting for things to happen.
I expect days to pass quickly because I’ve got things to do, to prepare for the things that will happen, but there is always plenty of time in which to do them.
when it gets to the day of, there is no time at all. it’s gone before it begins.
then it is over and all there is left to do is think about what has happened, and all the ways there are to feel about it.
it’s that change in speed that gets to me. I’m not sure I approve.
