day one:
minor signs of alienation are already apparent. don’t let it get to you. they have a shared history, time together before you. don’t let it get to you. it’s not about you. it’s not meant to hurt you. you cannot control the lives and actions of others. you cannot expect them to be like you. you are the add on, the new guy. give it time an dyou will blend like a fruit smoothie.
day two:
see I told you. almost there. you’re in. you’re good. they love you, and they help you and they joke with you. it’s going to be okay.
day three:
minor problem. I spoke too soon, I guess. you are not there yet. you are not enough yet. go wash your clothes and do the best you can. get some money and buy new clothes. buy good ones, buy nice ones, buy the right ones. take the time and follow the leader, round and round.
day four:
you’re not quite so apart anymore. but you do look different. you do not have their clothes, their miniscule size, their talent with a blowdryer or makeup brush. you can’t help that. it’s not your fault. you are you and only you and cannot be them. it’s nothing to blame. stop thinking about it. stop dwelling. it doesn’t matter. you matter. clothes are clothes. just be warm, comfy and yourself.
day five:
you are now you. you have your day and your schedule and your grocery lists and your busy things to do. so do they. the overlap is tolerable, even enjoyable. sometimes it feels strained and fake, it’s true. there’s no help for that. you’ve got to give people the right to be however they want to be, with themselves and with you. you cannot connect with everyone. but it’s all oaky now. you are loved now. you are wanted and strong and independent and smart. you can do this. you can live in this ridiculous world and exit in a few years unscathed. just get through today with a genuine smile and there will be nothing to worry about.
